This last Saturday our family attended the wedding of Steve and I's ring bearer. Wedding are always emotional for me but this one especially brought an onslought of emotion. I am very close to this family and seeing how quickly Chad has grown up made me realize again how quickly time goes by.
I cherish my boys. I have loved every phase, truly have loved them, dirty diapers and 2 a.m. feedings all of it. The wedding was a reminder to me of how quickly my boys are growing. I will have to admit it is a tough issue for me. I want to hold onto them. I want them to stay little. I want them to always want to watch Little Bear. I have to lay this down every day at the Lord's feet because I struggle with trust. Trusting that He loves these little guys so much more than I can imagine and that He loves me enough to walk me through my faith issues.
So my time with the boys is precious. My house is messy at times, my couch isn't a place to sit on it is a where I put clean laundry that needs to be folded but, I am okay with this. My prayer these days is that God will keep me here with my boys for as long as they need me. I hope they need me well into their 70s.
Weddings. I love weddings. I would love to be a wedding coordinator someday. I would love to tell the bride and groom to cherish every moment they have together. To thank God for every blessing and to know that life is precious and that time goes by much too quickly. Someone once told me that she wished she would have left the dust on her baseboards and would have let her boys get dirty. I am thankful I had that bit of advice before I had my three dirt clouds. My baseboards are full of dust. Showers are manditory at the end of the day because my boys are black from the dirt they accumulate throughout their ventures. Someday my house will be organized, all of my laundry will be put away and I won't have any stuffed animals in my bed and I will long for the days of little boys running through the house with guns and light sabers.
Trust. I am thankful we have a God we can trust with the most precious life has to offer, our kids.
2 comments:
I just can't give you a bigger AMEN on this post. I am right there with you. And I love weddings to. Even worked for my cousin who had her own business. I might be inclinded to work for my church doing it but never for the public. Really hard crowd to please and hard to get excited about people who should NOT be getting married etc...
Regardless of where laundry is and how dust lies, there is one thing your house is ALWAYS full of, and that is love! That will be the single most important thing that my three precious nephews will take with them from their wonderful home. You do such a spectacular job at filling your home with love!
Thanks for inspiring me to cherith the "now" moments. I tend to be too future oriented~it's probably a sunconscience reaction to my mom's past-oriented lifestyle!
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